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[13 Dec 2009|02:21pm] |
[OOC: For now, only Ansley's doctor can read his entries.]
Something doesn't feel right. I don't know what it is, but last week I just felt really strange...like there was something happening somewhere, but what it was and where it was I'm not sure.
I have a feeling it has something to do with my Dad. I haven't heard from him in a long time, but my stomach keeps twisting, like it knows something I don't...which is strange. Isn't that a contradiction?
What if I'm just imagining it? What if nothing's wrong at all, and I'm just going crazier? That'd go over well. I'll be here for the rest of my life at this rate. Sometimes it feels like I'm going backwards. Mr.Cricket used to tell me that unless I wanted to help myself, there was really nothing he could do...but I do. I'm sick of being here, I'm sick of being 'sick'.
If I had just kept my mouth shut, I wouldn't be in this mess. Dad wouldn't be in jail, I wouldn't be here...none of this would be happening.
I guess I'll just have to try harder.
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[11 Nov 2009|11:01pm] |
[OOC: For now, only Ansley's doctor can read his entries.]
I haven't written in this journal for the longest time, because I never know what to write about. I don't know how to express what I'm really feeling...but certain people around here seem to know immediately, even without me saying a word.
One of those people is reading my journal right now.
I feel...like I don't have a place here. Like, I have a room, and a place to be, but that's all. The only other room I feel comfortable in, other than my room, is Lita's office.
She makes me think of how I've always envisioned my mother someone. Who, I don't know.
Sometimes, I really miss Sophie. It's been over a year since she's been here, but...I always think about her.
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[10 Jul 2009|11:03pm] |
[OOC: For now, only Ansley's doctor can read his entries.]
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[09 Oct 2008|08:21pm] |
[OOC: For now, only Ansley's doctor can read his entries.]
[He doesn't even bother crossing this out this time. He felt...weird, not writing it for such a long time. It's basically a tick now.]
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[02 Oct 2008|08:39pm] |
[OOC: For now, only Ansley's doctor can read his entries.]
Everyone keeps leaving.
I guess I should have known it would happen sooner or later. People can't stay in places like this forever, right? It'd be kind of sad if they did. I can't imagine spending my entire life in a mental hospital. But going by how things have been, I just might. I'll probably get out of here soon, too.
I wonder where they went. Light and Sophie, I mean. Maybe they were just moved somewhere else.
But why? Light's been gone for a while, but they just took Sophie away Sophie just left a little while ago. Didn't even get to say bye or anything Glad I got to at least say bye to her. That would have sucked.
I've spent a lot of time keeping myself busy. Now that I don't have a roomate or a girlfriend or a friend around here, I've been practicing the guitar again. I've gotten pretty good, actually. I haven't left my room much, except to go to lunch or dinner. I've just been playing. It keeps me busy. Helps the time move faster.
I hate it here. I'm starting to like it here.
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[28 Jul 2008|07:28pm] |
[OOC: The only people who can read Ansley's journal are Light, Lita, and Sophie.]
I kind of miss home, sometimes.
I miss my things more than anything. Especially my guitar.
Well, it's not like I'm obsessed with it or anything, but I made it when I was younger in my Dad's shop. I played it a lot, all the time actually, but one day when my Dad was upset with me, he cut the strings the strings broke one day. I never got them replaced. I don't think I've played since I was 13 or something. I was pretty good.
I'm probably horrible by now. I don't know many songs.
This is such a random entry, I'm realizing this now as I re-read it. I guess it doesn't really matter though, right? As long as I'm writing something.
That's about it.
[OOC: HIS PB IS TEDDY GEIGER AND I HAD TO HAVE THE STRING CONCEPT IN SOMEWHERE, SO DEAL WITH ANSLEY RANDOMLY KNOWING HOW TO PLAY GUITAR, OKAY?! GOSH! GEESH! GOODNESS!]
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[06 Jul 2008|01:45pm] |
[OOC: For now, only Ansley's doctor and his roommate can read his entries.]
So, my Dad wrote to me.
He just wanted to know how I was doing.
They probably read it before they sent it to me, to make sure it was alright.
Maybe I should write back.
But I don't really know what to say to him.
What if he knows I've been lying? I can't tell him. But he'll know. Even when I write, he knows.
[OOC: Taped to the paged is the letter from his father.]
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[01 Jun 2008|02:16am] |
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I don't know what's wrong with me lately. I actually have to force myself not to write that stupid phrase over and over again in my journal. I slipped and wrote about a page and a half the other day haven't written it since I've been here. But why do I still feel like I need to write it? I hated it. At times I hated him for making me do it. I never hated him for making me do it, I just didn't like it. It made my hand cramp up.
I would sometimes write an extra page when I had lied a lot that day, because I felt a little bit guilty...not about lying to them but about lying to him but I don't know why. He always noticed. Then he'd just make me write two more. He never noticed.
So why do I miss him so much? I'm fine here.
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[25 May 2008|08:33pm] |
[OOC: For now, only Ansley's doctor can read his entries.]
[Note: I'm sure the words are still eligible, even though he scribbled them out once he realized that he fell back into old habits. ]
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