[OOC: For now, only Ansley's doctor can read his entries.]

I don't know what's wrong with me lately. I actually have to force myself not to write that stupid phrase over and over again in my journal. I slipped and wrote about a page and a half the other day haven't written it since I've been here. But why do I still feel like I need to write it? I hated it. At times I hated him for making me do it. I never hated him for making me do it, I just didn't like it. It made my hand cramp up.

I would sometimes write an extra page when I had lied a lot that day, because I felt a little bit guilty...not about lying to them but about lying to him but I don't know why. He always noticed. Then he'd just make me write two more. He never noticed.

So why do I miss him so much? I'm fine here.